I pulled this incredibly powerful example off an old Facebook post and blog.
Sometimes The Universe has something big to say and a horse is the vehicle, for want of a better word. This little girl has come into my life three times, with three totally unconnected, different owners for three different reasons. And tonight she’s brought me her gift of a whole new layer of awareness.
She’ll be dead by the time many of you read this. She’s had a life of loss and trauma and pain.
But what she’s brought to Emily Robins (who rescued her) and I is a deep expansive knowing and seeing of the utter angelic magnificence of who she is.
Her story defies belief. She came from Tasmania originally Emily found, orphaned at birth and raised by humans who didn’t realize how important it was to raise a horse to be a horse.
Then she was started with natural horsemanship techniques without Feel bless them. I remember being showed photos of her being crawled over by children under and over her, things flapped, tarps, plastic bags, whips and those incredibly sad, shut down eyes.
Then I came across her for a healing session when she was owned by a lady that was both pregnant and with terrible back injuries that required surgery and she had to sell her horses.
Another healing client was attracted to her orphan foal uniqueness and bought her and kept her at my place with my herd until we fell out.
She never did do connection with horses, only people.
They moved her to a small paddock next to their house. One of the saddest things I’ve seen was the beaten earth of the paddock directly outside the house, where she stood all the time, trying to catch a glimpse of her human within. People were her herd but they couldn’t sleep outside with her and keep her safe while, she slept – so she didn’t ever sleep properly like a horse with herdmate can.
Then she was caught and burned in the Traralgon bush fires on Black Saturday. I remember the father telling me that driving away leaving her behind was one of the hardest things they had ever done. They would have died trying to lead her out – hundreds of people did die that day and this family only just made it out with their lives at the speed of a car.
The girl nursed her back to health, burns on her face and legs – telling Emily when she tracked her down later, that she (the horse) was so spectacularly well behaved, that the girl sat underneath her changing the burn dressings.
Then for some reason that I don’t know and I’m trying not to judge, they sold her or gave her away or somehow she changed hands and life went even more to shit.
Emily came into the picture rescuing her when the latest owner said “if you don’t take her she’s going to the butchers”.
Then we come to tonight. When Emily (an old animal communication student) rang me unsure and upset about the message that she was getting about putting her down after struggling for so long to “make” her well.
We tuned in together, felt into our feelings and found – not a sad desperate traumatized horse that needed fixing like you would expect – but an expansive, amazing, knowing being, connected with All That Is, who was simply ready to leave this mortal life and had a gift for us on her way out.
She didn’t need fixing because she wasn’t broken.
She showed us the utter angelic magnificence of who she really is. She showed us how to flow with the pain and how to see the paradox of both surrendering to what Is and seeing how what HAS been, has contributed to the superbly perfect, angelic being that she is now as she she flows into the future.
Sit with this for a minute feeling into this story, in the context of our Paradox clinic – the seeming contradiction in the heart of the Paradox.
Comments from my Facebook page:
Now watch the ripple effect of Emily and I sitting in the energy in the heart of the Paradox, that came up in the comments on my Facebook page:
Emily was feeling Whisper’s pain deeply and learned to flow with pain and understand it and expand into it instead of resisting it and that was when she realized that she needed to help her out of this life. That was beautiful to be a witness to.
Thank you. This wonderful angel deserved, after all she has been through to be heard. Only for us to listen. To grasp and feel into her truth. I’ve realized that as we feel what we are being told through the collective consciousness it gives a sense of release. A release of all the trauma that one has endured. Pure acceptance of what is. Pure beauty, pure love
What she “told” us tonight, hey Emily, is that the listening you speak of, is to honor her…
This is so weird – it’s such a contrast – that I cried as I wrote her story but she… she is not sad or traumatized – what I saw and connected with is just pure… what Emily – how would you describe her that we felt tonight?
Yes pure. Complete and whole acceptance of what is. We are collectors. Every living thing collects aspects and perceptions of the life they live. Pain, joy, despare the list goes on. This is all collected and sent into collective conciousness for the universe to percieve this purity.
When Emily said this to me the first time, I laughed and said she was almost quoting Neale Donald Walshe in his book “Conversations with God” , that I loved so much. He just used different words to describe the same concept.
This is a difficult post for me to read. It’s brought up a lot of unprocessed emotions that I’ve buried.
I’m feeling anger, frustration, sadness, grief…
Yet as I’ve sat here for a while with my pain I remembered that I’ve chosen to view this occurrence using a certain perspective and that perspective contains limitations that allow me to experience those very emotions.
There is another perspective, a higher knowing that nothing occurred to this beautiful girl without her consent. She agreed to her path as did everyone who came in contact with her.
She agreed so she could provide many teaching moments, both happy and sad, joyful and painful.
My teaching moment from her is acceptance of what is, and the knowledge that she is not defined by her circumstances or experiences. There is a part of her that is untouchable and that part goes on and will do forever.
Ultimately her gift to me is a reminder that there is only love…
All else fades yet love remains, eternal, indivisible, unconditional.
Thank you, Emily and Jenny, for listening to her and honouring her truth
Yes I feel every word of this with a full heart
Ever expanding love ?
Actually Emily, I missed the biggest bit. If you’re up for it, tell them about your ever expanding consciousness the last few months, driven by this horse.
Whats truely exciting is that it is triggering the same emotions in people who all have completely different perceptions (as everyone does). This is a monumental energy shift, much bigger than i could ever fathom
For those of you who are “students” of Feel and if you feel up for it – Feel into the gift that this horse brings us tonight.
Oh my, that story made me cry. Both kinds of tears, what a beautiful angel. So sad but so uplifting too. We are so blessed to have these magnificent magical beings in our lives. The lessons the being in the now, the not holding them here with our feelings. Thank goodness this beautiful girl came into your life at this time and you were open to receiving this amazing gift. Horses never cease to humble me. Thank you for sharing and my heart goes to you and Emily for even with her parting gift her loss would still be keenly felt xxxxx
I have read this whole discussion a few times now – thank you everyone. For me it brings forward thoughts/feelings of rightness and compassion – not just for this story but for past experiences of my own with humans as well as animals! There is one horse from the past saying “it’s ok”
And that is her gift to you
Every time I start to feel inundated by the negativity in the Universe at the moment, I’m going to re-read this. How blessed and grateful I am to have found this group of totally amazing people.
I am not done with this story yet, for me, right now there are so much to feel into. It is soo huge! So lovely and beautiful
I think you did her justice. I always remember one of your previous posts – “Horses are powerful beings creating their own destiny. ” I believe this to be true. RIP
THAT made me cry again Katherine – it’s such a big and ongoing lesson – we are ALL powerful, magnificent, angelic beings, creating our own destiny
Sending this beautiful soul love & peace on her way home
So much food for thought right there. Thanks for sharing. My heart goes out to that baby, hope she’s at peace somewhere beautiful.
With all this energy supporting her added to where she was already and I’m sure she is Leanne.
Jenny this is one of the most saddest and also the most beautiful thing I have ever read. God bless you little girl and thankyou for your gift. You are truly a wise soul and amazing teacher.
Did you feel inclined to Feel into your sadness on this Cathy? There’s been some VERY interesting things happening!
Yes i have to quiet mind into this girl. There is so much energy in the post. Also, thankyou for communicating for her to us all and others that will be touched by her story.
What comes up for me as I feel into the tears Jennifer Pearce Is that she never knew peace and contentment and deep love. But it seems that is just my perception, as she has stated the outer was all illusion. That amidst the ‘horror’ of a life she lived, underneath it all, at the center, she was/is untouched radiant love and light. She did not let the outside circumstances define her inner Self.
That’s a HUGE message for me…. thank you Whisper! I feel and see you running over green meadows, proud mane blowing in all your magnificence – outer reflecting inner.
Freaking wowww…. THAT’s an enormous understanding. I look forward to hearing how you yourself feel after such a big expansion of understanding.
Ohhhh I have only had a short time to tune in to this beautiful presence this morning. She is asking me to forgive, as she had done over her life spent here. This is big and powerful, and I need to come back to her when I have more time to sit in her energy. I want to thank Emily for her courage and love.
A task for the Paradox of Healing clinic
So what do you think would have been the impact on this horse if we had been stuck in feeling sorry for her?
And what do you think the impact on this horse was, of Emily and I finding our way to the energy at the heart of the paradox?
Let’s look around our lives. Who have we been feeling sorry for, that we could more usefully support by getting Present to how we are feeling – i.e. being aware of and notice how you are experiencing that “feeling sorry for” in your body. The RIGHTNESS of that feeling when we’re not stuck in it. How feeling into that “feeling sorry for them” has infinite possibilities. You can set your intention or decide to notice how best you could support this person or animal. You can be open to noticing the RIGHTNESS behind the crappy thing/s that are happening to this person or animal. You can be open to the idea that what you are feeling may or may not be yours. You can soften your eyes if you find yourself frowning and trying too hard – and flow with the feelings that come up.