Let’s use one of the many things that I care about as an example. I care deeply about the treatment of Australia’s wild horses. Knowing and experiencing the almost sacred sentience of horses for so many years now, the idea of slaughtering them in all the ghastly ways that our government is doing that, angers me greatly.
See… the seeds of that great anger are in the deep caring itself – the anger is literally because I care deeply. And in that caring is the Heart Anger that has the power to change what’s happening. And holy shit is that really true?
Also in those seeds of anger, is the intensification of all those feelings where I have suppressed and ignored my Inner Guidance system. (Remember, all the other feelings – Mental, Energy, Physical, Heart and Emotions of fear, frustration, grief, guilt, shame – all of this intensifies into anger when we ignore or suppress them.) These feelings are literally guiding me to how I can change this situation. The overwhelm is my soul screaming at me to listen. The disconnection, numbness, exhaustion or depression about it comes when the overwhelm is too big to deal with.
Can you see how I’ve limited my ability to influence change in this situation when I was missing the messages that my Inner Guidance system was trying to tell me?
Yeah this is big hey?
To find the Heart Anger that can literally move mountains, let alone mere governments, I need to be open to all my Inner Guidance around this issue with the wild horses. I need to be open to understanding the guidance of my fears and frustration and grief – any and all of my feelings – to understand what they’ve been telling me about how I can play my part in changing this situation.
- I need to understand where my beliefs are limiting me or even where they’re just plain untrue. Is it true that I can influence or even cause change in this situation? Can I find curiosity about the truth or not of that?
- I’d better figure out why my inner self is screaming at me in overwhelm. This is big emotional stuff for me watching those glorious sentient beings get slaughtered from helicopters. The overwhelm is not the situation – the overwhelm is my message. What inner guidance have I not been listening to, that I’m in overwhelm now?
- What is my inner self trying to tell me about myself and about others? Not just the horses, but the folk who are promoting and doing the killing too. What understanding do I need that will shift me out of this going round and round in circles struggling place?
- Can I be curious about any judgement of right and wrong and blame about other people, the horses and the situation, that will be getting in the way of what I’m wanting to change? That one’s been hard, because to me the killing is so clearly wrong – and yet I know that stuck in judgement and blame has me struggling with overwhelm. As Caroline said, am I willing to put myself in someone else’s shoes in order to create the change that I so desperately want?
- Can I be curious about everything that I feel, that will bring me to knowing all the threads of this situation? That in turn will bring me to BEing the flowing energy of the universe within me and around me that will create the change that I’m looking for?
- Will all those things really reduce the overwhelm so I can see the action I need to take – where my inner guidance is guiding me to play my part in this. Can I find curiosity about that?
Yeah it’s been big…
Photo: I thought this photo of Michelle J’s from our digital Horse Wisdom messages is particularly apt “We don’t need chaos to change. The solution to every problem is already in your life. Pause for a moment and feel the Truth of that for yourself.”
And the result of my caring and following my inner guidance system? First step, I’ve been able to support a wonderful young woman who has come up with something that will change the face of brumby management in this country. Coincidence? You judge for yourself. The rest is an ever increasing peace building work in progress.
