More yummy happiness and healing with horses.
Lisa wants to share her triumph with you. She’d done an Ease and Grace program some time ago, without the massive health breakthroughs that I’ve come to consider normal with this horse work. So when we did an Ease and Grace clinic this year, I sent her the recordings for some extra support.
She wrote for you:
When I listen to the audios of Jenny working with people, I can always put myself into each situation as she works with them, and it’s like she’s working with me, one-on-one. I come up with my own answers to her questions, and then sometimes the person she’s working with gives the exact same answer that I would have given, so the session is even more immediate and relevant for me. Other times I just absorb the dialogue while I let my mind find whatever story or healing it needs to. Either way, there are always some deep ahah’s for me as an auditor.
The week 7 session of the Ease and Grace 2025 clinic focused on resistance – Jenny introduced it as “the bits of resistance that are stopping you from getting what you want.” I felt my resistance to the recording skyrocket from the moment Jenny started the session, so I let my mind wander where it needed to.
Since early childhood, I have suffered from a neurological disorder called Misophonia – characterised by a very strong emotional and physical reaction to specific, often common sounds. Triggers vary by individual but can include repetitive noises like tapping, sniffing, pen or computer mouse clicking, or other common sounds such as chewing. The sounds evoke feelings of intense anger, anxiety, or disgust. Misophonia has been termed a genuine neurological disorder where the brain processes trigger sounds as completely overwhelming, leading to a “fight-or-flight” response.
One of my biggest Misophonia triggers is speech affectations – where people modulate their voice for effect or credibility, often subconsciously. For example, some people (mostly women) pronounce their “s” as a sibilant, where they produce a super high-pitched hissing or whistling sound between their teeth whenever they pronounce an “s”. Another example is called a vocal fry or creaky voice – a vocal register with a low, rattling or croaky sound produced by a loose, relaxed closure of the vocal cords.
The week 7 session was rife with vocal fry by all participants, including Jenny, and my brain went into immediate overload. Talk about full-blown resistance! I had to turn the audio volume way, way down to disguise the vocal fry as best I could but still just be able to understand the language. It was paiiiiiiinful!!
However, sometime during that session, I suddenly understood why vocal fry is such a huge trigger for me. Vocal fry is the voice that my infuriatingly overpowering mother used whenever she went into full manipulation mode, from my early childhood. In that state, she was somehow always able to control me like a little puppet, with her yanking at the strings of my life according to her will. For decades, I had zero immunity to this, and she somehow got me to do all manner of things that I hated with a passion, many of which I still have nightmares about in my 60s. It has always driven me livid with rage – the inescapable control, and the voice she did it in.
In the session, my big ahah moment was that my limbic system came to associate vocal fry with intense internal and suppressed rage – and so a Misophonia trigger was created within me. Once I became aware of the link, during the session, I started being able to diffuse the trigger – as the audio played, whenever I started to feel triggered by each speaker’s vocal fry, I repeated things like –
“She doesn’t control me anymore.”
“I am immune to her now.”
“I am safe.”
“I am in charge of whatever I do, whenever I want.”
“I don’t have to.”
… all the things that I was powerless to express throughout my life’s interactions with her.
I still don’t know how that woman came to have so much inescapable power over me for so long. However I’m now free of all of that control, and also the last of the Misophonia triggered by vocal fry is becoming spent. What a massive relief!!!
Lisa’s second email:
I found my sleep patterns improved noticeably while I was listening to the Ease and Grace audios. For ages now I’ve been waking up every night about 3 hours after I go to sleep, and then lying awake for the next 3 or 4 hours, then dropping back off to sleep for a few more hours (whenever I can) but then feeling really foggy headed and sick all day. So instead of just lying awake, I listened to your audios, putting myself in place of each person you worked with. That helped me a lot, and I found I had a much clearer head the next day even despite my broken nights.
So now I’m going back and listening to every audio you’ve ever shared with me, and the Ease and Grace recordings again too. Last night I listened to a live seminar you did in 2021 that focused on clearing the fear imprint. Much deep healing there for me, as I have a lot of fear imprints.
I’m clearing the Queen’s fear imprints as well, as she has lots too, and I feel those as well. So I’m in the space there for us both, since I’ve been given the tools to do that by you.
What is it that works so spectacularly for happiness and healing here?
See… She wanted it.
That’s the start, the desire for change.
You can feel it in her first email. That desire met the deep knowing that her feelings had meaning and purpose, met the ability to use her Feel that she’d been steadily developing with her horse, met the support.
The same release, inner peace, joy and healing that we experience when we discover and use our Feel for our horse, is the same release, inner peace, joy and healing that people experience when they understand that inner guidance in the rest of their lives. Lisa has been steadily developing a Comfort Zone around applying her Feel for her horse and herself until she reached the point in Week 7 of the recordings where she found a way to lean into the feelings that had previously been so overwhelming. Gosh that Comfort Zone is so important for horses and people both!
I don’t think this kind of profound healing can be imposed from the outside because it takes a certain amount of… call it bravery. I’ve always seen this kind of profound healing coming from within like it’s done with Lisa.
I doubt you have to wonder why I love this work, hey.
Today’s photo: Lisa and the Queen. Congratulations Lisa, you’re rocking life!
