An open heart changes everything

The link between an open heart and getting what we want and the profoundly powerful role that anger can play in that.

More than 20 years ago I’d been very cross with a local racehorse trainer. Gosh that’s an understatement. I’d go so far as to say that I despised him for something I thought he’d done. I knew that the anger I had for this bloke was hurting me and that it had the potential to hurt him too. I made myself OK with that by saying “god bless him” every time I said anything that reflected that anger.

One day I was doing a healing session on myself and it came up that I had to forgive this bloke in order to heal this layer of my own stuff. Hot damn… I just couldn’t do it. I considered that what he’d done was to hurt people I cared about, hurt Peace (the horse I had wished was mine) and deliberately screwed me over too. I knew this anger was hurting me and even so, I just couldn’t forgive him. As I struggled with it, I got the idea to wish that I could forgive him. THAT I could do. That wish was heart felt and genuine in a way that simply forgiving him wasn’t.

I instantly felt Peace’s presence come over the farm and cried at the idea that in death he’d come home to where he was happy.

A few days later I was showing a lady some photos and she said “You used to own …. Peace didn’t you?” (I’ve missed out his first name in fairness to the trainer in the story whose actions I realized later, were perfectly aligned with what I was creating.) “No” I said “I just rehabbed him from his blown tendon and looked after him for the owners. I wished I owned him though.”

“I watched him race in Darwin last week” she said with a funny sideways look on her face. “They don’t last too long up there.”

I rushed home and rang the Darwin Turf Club, to find that Peace was no longer on that trainer’s books, got the name and phone number of the trainer and rang him.

“No he’s not here any more” he said. “He blew his knees and I think we shot him.” A gasp from me. “Mmmm maybe not,” he said. “Maybe my sister in law’s still got him.” So off I go to the sister in law, where I found that I was in time and Peace was still alive.

We spent the next few weeks in a dance with her trying to sell him for $10,000 pretending he was still sound and me trying to pretend I didn’t care enough and eventually she sold him to me for a more reasonable price and he started the long trek home.

Here’s the thing. That race he broke down in?

It was the same time that I’d done the “I wish I could forgive the trainer” thing and the same time that I felt his presence so intensely come over the farm.

I’d wished that Peace was mine and I don’t think there’s much doubt that in that stinking hot weather that he wasn’t used to and with the pain of his sore knees, that Peace himself was wishing for the life he had with us too.

Together we CREATED his pathway home.

And here’s how we did it – anger is the energy of creation.

Who would have thought it? The intense anger that I had been experiencing with the trainer – as soon as I’d released the stuckness of that with the heartfelt “I wish I could forgive him” – then the creation of what I wished for could move forward easily.

We’ve moved forwards into a much deeper understanding of both anger and forgiveness since those days of bringing Peace home 20 years ago. These days we understand the difference between a dirty kind of anger that’s destructive and a clean feeling that I call Heart Anger that understands all the threads of what’s happening and creates change so fast your head will spin. That’s just one of many aspects to creating change that you experience in the unusually formatted on-line book 30 Seconds to Change Your Life.

We’re in a world of rapid change right now – we can sit back passively and watch it happen or we can drive the changes to the life and world that we want to create.

Monks have been known to sit on top of mountains for decades looking for the wisdom that horses gift us so generously.

What inner wisdom could your horses help you to access, that could do with a bit of “unsticking” in order to create the changes that YOU want?

10, 9, 8, 7…

We’ve got something so very special coming up that is going to combine that guidance to our own wisdom, at the same time as being brilliant with our horses. We’re planning a profound reciprocal experience where people help horses and horses help people. At the same time, we’ll learn how to bring in the kind of changes that we want to the kind of world we want to live in. There’ll be no need to sit in the snow on mountain tops or wave magic wands.

The countdown is on and it’s coming soon!

Top photo Peace and my daughter Mel, getting his body back into shape again after we’d rehabbed his blown knees.