
I snorted with laughter when someone commented recently about how gentle I am. All I can say is, they haven’t known me for too long, because the rage that came from all the other suppressed feelings used to scare the crap out of me as well as everyone around me.
Rage is the result of stuffing down all those angers that were themselves caused by suppression of the other feelings – Mental, Physical, Energy and Heart Feel – including the fear, frustration, guilt, shame, envy, grief and all the other emotions of Emotional Feel. Rage is what can happen when we push all those already stuck angers down too often, for too long.
I discovered quite a while back that rage is not an emotion for me – it’s a very scarey disconnect. There’s nobody home anymore.
Once that neural pathway in my brain was activated, I can’t understand rage. I can’t feel it, can’t stroke it, can’t manage it, can’t do anything with it because in its disconnection, it is in essence uncontrollable. Without the tiniest bit minimizing my responsibility to change it, for those who experience it like me, there’s no point in blaming or judging ourselves or anybody else, because there’s nobody home. But there is something I can do about it.
What a bloody missed opportunity that disconnect was, to create the very change that I desired so intensely, that I had been suppressing my inner guidance about. Rage is the ultimate go round in round in struggling circles, stuck in the same change place, not creating that which we care most about.
What we can do to take responsibility for its effect on others and get out of that struggling loop, is to find the root cause of the disconnect in the first place, so rage doesn’t happen. And we can do that so thoroughly that we change those neural pathways in the brain and change our reactions.
Yes you heard right – we can change the automatic reactions that come from those neural pathways.
It starts with deciding that we want to change it.
And it takes commitment.
Applying your version of unconditional loving curiosity to “WTF is really going on here?” Where is this coming from? Whose is it? Is it all mine? Is there an action to take? Am I limiting myself or others with a belief that isn’t true? Is there anything for me to know or do about this for myself or someone else?
If rage is an issue for you, then get your butt into a live event so we can wrap you up and love you to bits while you get guided to change what you most care about.
The words on the photo say “Karma is our opportunity to do it better this time.”
Our photo is a wild brumby so beautifully captured by Michelle J Photography, from one of our Horse Wisdom Messages. The heading on the card says “Karma’s a bitch”. The main body says “Ha! Karma’s not a bitch, she’s your best friend and lover and teacher all tangled up together in a direct connection to the divine. Karma is a “do over” – your opportunity to do it better this time and feel good doing it.” I was thinking that rage is one of those things that we might appreciate a “do-over” with.
Oh gosh… I can feel someone’s tears…
